sight isn’t always necessary

Y’know why I run? Because it doesn’t involve competition, and I can do it and feel good and look good without having to see anyone around me doing it better than me. Pretty stupid, really. I mean, why should I care what everyone else is doing, as long as what I’m doing is what I want to be doing? Right? Well the key phrase there is “doing what I want to be doing”, and I most certainly am not. I don’t know what exactly it would be that would give me the fulfillment I seek, but it’s definitely not programming at a benefits administration company, even if I have some kind of status around here. What a waste of a perfectly good ambitious brain! I mean, I could cure cancer, save the world, give everyone a place to live, spend time with my child and in spending time with him he’d be so confident later on in life that he’ll become president and save the world from destroying itself… but writing code that literally does nothing good for anyone, that’s really just annoying me. I annoy myself.